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Jacqueline Catherine Rostan.
stop laughing at my surname.
i don't understand politics
but i think obama is hot
:)
I'm gay and i like to hug
don't run away from me
i'll find you
:D
♥
Jacqueline Catherine Rostan.
stop laughing at my surname.
i don't understand politics
but i think obama is hot
:)
I'm gay and i like to hug
don't run away from me
i'll find you
:D
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009 @ 5:41 PM
Happily never after
is there such a word as Forever
people come
people go
one day they're your friends
the next day they're your enemies
feelings change
they dont stay true
just like those around you
i wonder what will happen if i school here next year
new people
new environment
then what about those i left behind
would they matter so much to me
maybe they will
maybe they won't
will i be happy
how do i know
i don't want to know anything
wouldn't it be easier to not be a living breathing human
wouldn't it be easier to be clueless about anything that is happening around you
truly
innocence is bliss
tangled up in my own little mess named Feelings
i don't even know what i want anymore
i don't know what matters to me anymore
but then again
this might just be the mood swing
Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 3:34 PM
i do have something to say
Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 8:05 PM
.
you suddenly asked me to come back to indonesia
fuck you
you want me to school here
fuck you
you gave my life to me but take it away again
fuck you
you're coming tomorrow
fuck you
fuck the both of you
dont compare me to my sister
fuck you
she's strong mentally i'm not
so what
fuck you
she's responsible and independent
good in studies too
i'm not
so what
fuck you
fuck everything
my life
you
everyone
fuck you
i want to rip your fucking throat out and feed it to the fucking dogs
i want to stab your fucking non-existant hearts and tear it to pieces
fuck you
Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 6:34 PM
You
@ 5:04 PM
waiting
is a miserable process
i don't want you to do it
but if you don't
it would means that i'm not yours anymore
if i'm not yours anymore
how do i live on
@ 4:30 PM
(L)
it has not been one full day when i left your side
it feels like i have been away for a year
why does it hurt so much
i thought you wouldn't cry
i thought you were strong
i didn't think you will miss me so much
i didn't know you love me so much
i was in the car when i glanced at the clock
it was 11:11
you told me before that when you saw it's that time
someone is thinking of you
i thought
it must be you
my gosh
how i miss you so
when i saw your posts i wanted to cry
so so badly
when i saw your messages
all i could think of was when can i be with you
i lay on the bed
thinking of your smile
your hugs
your kisses
everything about you
imprinted in my mind
never forgotten
today i could finally come online
i wanted to just leave a message for you
because i thought you were at training
but when you replied
i swear
it was as if i've never talked to you before
the joy
the exhilaration
i love your smile
your shy attempt to hide your happiness when you saw me
i hope i can be by your side soon
i miss you
i want you
Friday, November 20, 2009 @ 11:39 AM
Farewell
Happily never after
is there such a word as Forever
people come
people go
one day they're your friends
the next day they're your enemies
feelings change
they dont stay true
just like those around you
i wonder what will happen if i school here next year
new people
new environment
then what about those i left behind
would they matter so much to me
maybe they will
maybe they won't
will i be happy
how do i know
i don't want to know anything
wouldn't it be easier to not be a living breathing human
wouldn't it be easier to be clueless about anything that is happening around you
truly
innocence is bliss
tangled up in my own little mess named Feelings
i don't even know what i want anymore
i don't know what matters to me anymore
but then again
this might just be the mood swing
Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 3:34 PM
i do have something to say
i love you
Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 8:05 PM
.
you suddenly asked me to come back to indonesia
fuck you
you want me to school here
fuck you
you gave my life to me but take it away again
fuck you
you're coming tomorrow
fuck you
fuck the both of you
dont compare me to my sister
fuck you
she's strong mentally i'm not
so what
fuck you
she's responsible and independent
good in studies too
i'm not
so what
fuck you
fuck everything
my life
you
everyone
fuck you
i want to rip your fucking throat out and feed it to the fucking dogs
i want to stab your fucking non-existant hearts and tear it to pieces
fuck you
Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 6:34 PM
You
i miss you
i love you
i want to be there with you
i repeated this countless times
but i have to tell you how i feel
don't cry
because i won't like it
smile more
because i love it
my life revolves around you darling
and you know it
i want to be stitch
so i can sleep beside you
be on your shoulder
your head
as long as i can be with you for every moment
turn me into anything
a mosquito
a fly
cockroach (?)
i love you
:)
i love you
i want to be there with you
i repeated this countless times
but i have to tell you how i feel
don't cry
because i won't like it
smile more
because i love it
my life revolves around you darling
and you know it
i want to be stitch
so i can sleep beside you
be on your shoulder
your head
as long as i can be with you for every moment
turn me into anything
a mosquito
a fly
cockroach (?)
i love you
:)
@ 5:04 PM
waiting
is a miserable process
i don't want you to do it
but if you don't
it would means that i'm not yours anymore
if i'm not yours anymore
how do i live on
tell me
what should i do
what should i do
@ 4:30 PM
(L)
it has not been one full day when i left your side
it feels like i have been away for a year
why does it hurt so much
i thought you wouldn't cry
i thought you were strong
i didn't think you will miss me so much
i didn't know you love me so much
i was in the car when i glanced at the clock
it was 11:11
you told me before that when you saw it's that time
someone is thinking of you
i thought
it must be you
my gosh
how i miss you so
when i saw your posts i wanted to cry
so so badly
when i saw your messages
all i could think of was when can i be with you
i lay on the bed
thinking of your smile
your hugs
your kisses
everything about you
imprinted in my mind
never forgotten
today i could finally come online
i wanted to just leave a message for you
because i thought you were at training
but when you replied
i swear
it was as if i've never talked to you before
the joy
the exhilaration
i love your smile
your shy attempt to hide your happiness when you saw me
i hope i can be by your side soon
i miss you
i want you
i love you
Friday, November 20, 2009 @ 11:39 AM
Farewell
it hurts
badly
i don't want to leave
i don't want to forget
i don't want to remember
memories flooding
one by one we walk away
am i coming back
am i staying there
am i still your friend
it would be easier to be someone with no feelings
complicated feelings that tie you down
but if i have no feelings
i wouldn't be a human
flesh and blood
i would rather be gone
disappear
forever
and ever
badly
i don't want to leave
i don't want to forget
i don't want to remember
memories flooding
one by one we walk away
am i coming back
am i staying there
am i still your friend
it would be easier to be someone with no feelings
complicated feelings that tie you down
but if i have no feelings
i wouldn't be a human
flesh and blood
i would rather be gone
disappear
forever
and ever
i love you